Plus a couple of days. I'm still alive and well; this stinky tea hasn't killed me yet! I am starting to notice some effects from the tea, and I'm sure they are the result of the increased blood flow to the brain that was promised by Grand Master Fu.
Late at night, if I wake up, I can actually hear noises in my head! At times it sounds like a factory full of busy workers all doing their individual jobs. It's hard to describe, but sometimes there really is a lot going on up there! The very first thing to recover was my voice. The muscles in my chest had become so weak that it was hard for me to speak in my normal voice; a lot of times there was little more than a whisper. If Lorraine and I were in a restaurant for instance, she would have to order for me because nobody could hear my voice. After a week of drinking the tea prescribed by Grand Master Fu my voice began to recover. Now it is much better.
I have now nine days in, drinking it three times a day as prescribed. The taste or smell have never gotten better or easier for me to accept. This does not matter to me however as I have chosen to accept the wisdom of ancient Chinese medicine and its healing powers ... I am literally betting my life on it. The first appointment with oncology is this coming week; although we know that the only treatment western medicine has in store for me is chemo and radiation. I am sure I will have to submit to these but I have no intention of discontinuing the Eastern medicine that has been proven over thousands of years. I consider it a way of "hedging my bets" by combining Eastern and Western medicine. The tumor has been diagnosed as a very aggressive type of cancer, a grade 4 glioblastoma. There is no time for me to take any chances. In the six months it took my doctors to diagnose this, it has been growing rapidly inside my brain in an inoperable area. Nobody knows what the future holds, but I'm going to fight for it with every fiber of my being.
Lorraine has been such an incredible source of strength and love, words can't describe how much she shows me her love and devotion every day. I know how lucky I am to have her, and I feel so blessed and fortunate that it makes me praise God every day for being so lucky!
Yes I know, I am very sick but the Lord makes you comfortable in a lot of ways if you pray to him. Prayer has become a terrific source of strength and solace to not only myself but Lorraine as well. I could swear you that one day last week the Lord actually spoke to me at a time when I was particularly frightened. He only said two words: "don't worry." Those two words He spoke to me has completely changed and enriched my life. When I get scared now, I just think of that day and remember the feeling. It's as if a blanket of peace was laid over me. There are no better words to describe this feeling. He is in control and we know it.
There are times in everybody's life when he or she has to acknowledge a higher power. Unfortunately for us humans, this often happens only after tragedy strikes or when a life is threatened. I have been a Christian for over 20 years but somehow never found the time to pray is much as we do now. I am ashamed to say that it took the Lord smacking me in the head, to knock some sense into it. I have completely committed my life to Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. I know He will allow me to be healed and make me strong once again. I have promised to serve Him better for the rest of my life and my faith tells me that He will make me strong enough to do so.
The Bible tells us that man "with faith the size of a mustard seed" will be healed if he asks. God knows what is in my heart, and that my faith is enormous- not just the size of a mustard seed. I know that through him all things are possible and it is for this reason that I pray every single day over and over again for him to heal my brain and allow my body to recover from this tumor. Only He can provide this type of miracle and when I am well, I will be better able to tell the world that Jesus is who I have to thank for my ability to walk tall and be strong once again.
God put these practitioners of Eastern medicine into my life for a reason. Grand Master Fu has been healing people since the age of 12 with his knowledge of ancient Chinese medicine. His grandfather lived his life with the Chinese Emperor, serving as his doctor/medicine man. Chinese medicine from centuries ago is in Grand Master Fu's blood; it's all he has ever known. There is absolutely no reason for me to distrust it or not believe they can heal me. The Lord would never have put this path before me if it was destructive. The Lord wants me to be healthy and happy. Thanks to lovely wife and I faith in God, I am an extremely happy man. Please pray with me that I may once again become healthy so that I can serve the Lord in ways that I cannot do now.
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That is wonderful Paul that you have such a close relationship with God! I too have a strong relationship with God since I got into recovery with AA in 1988. ANd it gets stronger still! You are right, it often seems to take us being "at our darkest hour" before we turn to Him... And yes, He is always there waiting for us to ASK!
Who cares how horrid the tea tastes LOL! It sounds like it is DEFINITELY working for you beautifully! From a nurse's perspective, it sounds like "the sounds" in your head are blood being circulated in your head as it normally and healthfully should! This sounds very positive! =) you sound great! xo
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